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[26 Dec 2005|09:33pm] |
I'm back...
:Laughs maniacally:
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[24 Aug 2005|04:40pm] |
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I would like to take this time to apologize to everyone I've come into contact with over the last few days. My behavoir had been unacceptable and I give you the permission to hate me ((though I hope you'll chose not to)). What I've been doing and saying to people is uncalled for, heartless, and inconsiderate and I hope you all can find it in you to forgive me.
Sincerely,
Matthew
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[19 Aug 2005|07:19pm] |
School is coming.................................................
i want to cry
katy and jordan are mad at me?
no! im sorry...!
cat fights haha
elbow hurts...why?
AR HAR HAR HAR
Matt
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[12 Aug 2005|04:41pm] |
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I just realized today that nearly all of my shirts have bloodstains on them so my dad gave me money and i went shopping. yay. I have new clothes aren't i special?
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[05 Aug 2005|12:41pm] |
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So. I'm home. Finally. Yes. Which is good and bad at the same time. I got into a fight with Jack and we haven't talked since. I got into a fight with my dad. We were screaming at each other and someone called the cops on us. Hehehe... oops.
Katy: but i like him, i think
me: then tell him
katy: but i hate him!
me: then dont tell him
katy: but i have to tell him SOMETHING...
me: shut up...
That's about it...
Mattheeeew *you can't spell matthew without the ewwwwwwww!* <--Jen...
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[31 Jul 2005|12:23pm] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JACK!!!!!!!
WE LOOOOOOOOOOVE YOOOOOUUU!!!
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[22 Jul 2005|02:19pm] |
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Last night I seriously considered killing myself. I was just feeling really depressed and I don't even know why. And then looking at those pictures made me feel...I don't know...better? Worse? Both if that's possible? Anyway...As you can see, I'm still alive and I'm nice and great and happy...or whatever...
Matt
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| What I do when I'm all alone and no one's online... |
[18 Jul 2005|03:08am] |
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You Kill the INC: hi
Trent Brackhurst: totally
You Kill the INC: exactly!
Trent Brackhurst: how're ya?
You Kill the INC: im great! how are you?!
Trent Brackhurst: not baf
Trent Brackhurst: or bad
You Kill the INC: have you ever had sex with an animal?
Trent Brackhurst: nope!
Trent Brackhurst: u?
You Kill the INC: oh yeah all the time
Trent Brackhurst: cool
Trent Brackhurst: what k9ind?
You Kill the INC: cats, dogs, rabbits, horses, chickens...you know
You Kill the INC: that kind of stuff
Trent Brackhurst: oh right
Trent Brackhurst: whatever's around
You Kill the INC: yup
You Kill the INC: do you have a sister?
Trent Brackhurst: nope!
Trent Brackhurst: u?
You Kill the INC: no
You Kill the INC: ever have sex with your parents?
Trent Brackhurst: naw
Trent Brackhurst: i think they had sex with each other though
Trent Brackhurst: once
You Kill the INC: yeah id think so...
You Kill the INC: just once?
Trent Brackhurst: that's all i know of, yeah
You Kill the INC: oh ok
Trent Brackhurst: you/
Trent Brackhurst: ?
You Kill the INC: just once but then i made my mom pregnant so that was the last time
Trent Brackhurst: geez
Trent Brackhurst: pretty good batting average
Trent Brackhurst: did she go through with the pregnancy?
You Kill the INC: no...she had an abortion....i wanted her to have our baby but she said no.
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[16 Jul 2005|12:08pm] |
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I got a smoothie today. I took off the top and was drinking it, and Tyler slapped the bottom of it so it got all over my face lmao... And then there was this huge thing of PLASTIC in it!!!! I could've choked or something!!!! GOD IM GONNA SUE THEM!!!!!! BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!
Matt
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[15 Jul 2005|12:05pm] |
I completely freaked out last night. I feel bad now because Jordan Katy Jack and Tyler were the ones putting up with me...I'm so messed up...
matt
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[14 Jul 2005|12:20pm] |
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Today...hehe this is weird...today at D.D's, he's like "you need to voice what you're feeling every now and then matt" and i said "you really want me to voice them? now?" and he did...so i just took a deep breath and screamed lol...it was fun...but he didnt even blink...ill try harder next time...
Matt
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[13 Jul 2005|01:10pm] |
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im hungry but i have no food....................
thats about it...
Matt
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[11 Jul 2005|06:08pm] |
jordan sorry i wasnt online earlier...i wanted to talk about what we were yesterday...wanted to say sorry too...for dumping my issues on you...
k same for you...
caleb im confused
jack haha sweeeeeeeeeeet
jen whoot pocky ness
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[11 Jul 2005|04:09pm] |
Sometimes I dont understand why people still talk to me and why they like me ((or at least pretend to)). I mean why would you like THIS? I am so messed up. I'm a jerk. I'm rarely nice. I'm moody. I'm insecure. I'm insane. I'm suicidal. I'm angry.
I do not deserve any of you...
Matt
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[07 Jul 2005|03:22pm] |
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why must i have a heart? i feel so bad right now... Im pissed and angry and just...ugh...jordan thanks for listening...if you ever want to listen again im here lol
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[03 Jul 2005|03:31pm] |
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Dads making me stay with D.D for crap. He says my suicide attempts are pissing him off. And its for the THING. and i hate the THING. soooo im sick.
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[03 Jul 2005|03:10pm] |
Since Caleb wasnt online last night I went into a chat and found myself a friend ^_^. He's really cool and really nice and i really like talking to him. rock on bitch...
He actually got me right...hes like "you dont trust people much do you" and "you have mixed personalities" and i was like...whoa. no one ever gets that about me. it was weird...he was guessing all this stuff about me and was right.
um anyway...im out i guess...
and how do i tell people who i havent already told? only a few people know and im scared to tell anyone else...
dammit
matt
dammit
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[03 Jul 2005|03:10pm] |
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today i was talking to some dude that i met in a chat on aim... he was really nice but he got me thinking about things that i dont want to talk about. We had a chat about my "perdicament" ((i just like that word)) and he was really supportive. He wants me to "turn to god" and find something for me to live for. I realized how suicidal i really am whil i was talking to him...and how sarcastic too. I feel bad for how i was treating him but whatever...i'm sure he'll live.
And as for you Caleb, I am sorry for being such a loser...I swear I don't have feelings for anyone but YOU.
Jordan: why didnt you like my pro? the i heart thing??
Katy: thanks for listening! ^_^
\m/(><)\m/ <---heh heh look at that! whoot!
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I took some people's advice...and I'm probably going to get a new journal too just to get away from this shit. I'm sick of people being complete assholes...
mmmmmm
thats delicious
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[02 Jul 2005|02:05pm] |
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Quit calling. It's pissing me off.
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